I despise feeling bad about myself. I know how to turn off the negative voices in my head. I’ve also learned to listen a little to see if it’s more of a warning than a cristicism. Sometimes I can’t tell the difference, I misunderstand, or I choose to ignore.

FEAR SUCKS!

I’ve spent too much of my life being afraid. And almost as much time being ashamed. What good has that brought me?

I choose relationships that don’t always bring out the best in me. Repeated behavior. Patterns so obvious, the only rational explanation is my lack of true self-love.

I know & yet I choose

Not what I want

Just whatever I can get

But I am grateful. Deeply grateful . I’m lucky and blessed. I’m still trying my best everyday.